I do not like small talk
Nor people who have no depth
I like to be alone to explore my mind
I write poetry, letters and stories
On a typewriter
I read Jane Austen’s novels
I listen to Sylvia Plath’s poetry
On a record player each morning
I do my makeup like a pinup girl
I dress like I am Audrey Hepburn
A classic of her time
I pride myself in learning
Rather than dating, drinking and the millennial mind
I do not associate with those who lack integrity
Nor those who do not do their part in society
I was not meant to be born in this era
I wish I could go back in time
This is the lonely life of an old soul like mine
I could not do it anymore
Going back to you each time you felt like reaching out
What I need you can not give me
I must give it to myself
And leave you in the past where you belong
Choose to connect with the right people who bring out the best version of you
Sometimes you have to self reflect on why time after time you allow people to treat you like shit. Maybe the real problem isn’t them but you.
Facing the days without you I can take
It’s the nights without you next to me I can’t bear
It still stings when someone mentions your name
Suddenly the flashback of you is right before my eyes
There’s just no escaping you
I awoke last night from a dream I had
I was walking between two large mountains on a path
There was no way around
So I continued until I came to a creek
My thirst for hope consumed me
So I drank the water to carry on
The path holds memories of mistakes, pain and the worst of me
Still I walk for I am strong
The only way out is facing it all
Forgiveness and acceptance is why I have traveled so far
It is the time to give myself both of these
The end of the path is near
Love cautiously my mind tells me
Love always whispers my heart
You must learn to be comfortable alone
It is the most crucial time to learn about yourself
I hope you know that even in the dark I will always search for the light
