The only time I ever felt alive was when I was loved by you
And now you’re gone

Dancing With Death

I dance with death each day
A bittersweet melody with a slow rhythm
A dark room with a small candle for light
The longer we dance
The brighter the flame
Teaching me to always hold on to hope

Choose To Stay

Everytime I came so close to death
I wanted to live
And that is enough for me
To choose to stay


He lays in my bed and tells me those three words
I say it back when I know I only felt that way about you


He thinks because he has my body
He has my heart
But it always
Without a doubt
Has belonged to you


He kisses me
And I pretend it’s you
So when I open my eyes
I still taste you


You try to numb the pain with anything you can find
Just to trade your emotions to get her off your mind


I had to be honest with myself
I was the only person who could shape my future
Either by living in the past or moving forward
Was I going to live my life as a victim or survivor?
I decided right then
From that day forward
To live it as a survivor

Drinking With My Demons

I used to light a cigarette
Close the door
And drink
Until my demons went away
Now I open the door
Pour them a drink
And tell them
They are welcomed to stay

The Gift

Never hide the hurt you feel inside to have others accept you
Don’t you know that you feeling so much is a beautiful gift?