When you grow up in a home where your mother’s moods were euphoric then melancholic, while talking to imaginary friends, you do not judge others for simply being different.
You ignited a fire in my soul that can not be tamed by another.
When you are able to hear his name
Without any pain
My dear you may smile
And know that it is finally over
You have moved on
“Does it get easier?” she asked me.
“No, but you become stronger” I replied.
My mind was spinning as if it was a tornado. My emotions would not stop raging out of control. I was losing it. The madness had taken me once again as I relived my traumatic past. Anger, suicidal thoughts and reckless behavior consumed me. After the episode ended, I could feel tears in my eyes forming as he gently kissed my forehead. His eyes met mine with a gentle gaze and I apologized over and over again. He caressed my face and said with a smile, “Trish, you have a lot of feelings and that’s okay.”
You may find a piece of me
In the women you meet
However, over time
You will see
That they will never compare
To someone like me
I envy how easy it was for you to walk away.
I do not know how to love with pieces of my heart. I love with my whole heart or not at all.
Your decision to not have children does not make you any less of a woman.
For Those Who Struggle With Mental Illness:
I know that 2017 has not been easy for you. I know you have struggled with your mind, work and relationships with others. So I will not ask much of you. All I ask for this New Year’s Eve, is to put your hand over your heart when you think of bad memories. Do you feel your heartbeat? I know you do. Look at the resilience you built in 2017. You know what else? You will make it through 2018 too.
-A person who struggles with bipolar disorder
–And tried to die by suicide in August 2017
—I am still here and so are you—
—-Patricia D. Wheeler