I have only one direction in life: forward.
He has an old soul
Heart of gold
However, may you ask about his past
Those are secrets he will never unfold
These lines I write
Shall never fully define
What it was like
When you were mine
The facade is a mask we bestow as the curtain rises. The play is our life and we choose the role that is most appealing to the crowd. No matter the applause, we all take the mask off at the end of the show. Bravo you have played yourself a fool. Do not live your life as a masquerade.
Spilled ink is often mixed with heartache and tears.
I have no idea what it is like to be normal
Nor do I wish to ever be so
I feel everything to an extreme
Highs and lows
Intense always
Even on the dark days
I was not made to be normal
I was born with this chemical imbalance on purpose
To make it known
That the strongest people have been through the most
Not physically but mentally
Those are the real heroes
They fight demons alone
They save themselves
They do not need your approval
They are the strongest people I know
I am one of them
Perhaps so are you
I have anxiety and bipolar 2
Now, what about you?
It’s been months since our last encounter
I can still taste your lips
Soft and sweet
Tongues dancing to a slow rhythm beat
Fingers intertwined
Silky dark hair covering your face
As I lean in more and more
Bodies yearning to be made one
This can not be a sin to feel this euphoric
Now I remember why I have to think back
To when we were exceptionally high on one another
However, our bond became an intoxicating poison
Your absence still lingers
I remember the day I decided to leave
You did not reach out; You became a ghost
It is a melancholy feeling
I tend to break hearts I have been told
I even break my own
Perhaps that is what was so similar between us
Our mutual suffering
And our old souls being misunderstood
My pride forever gets the best of me
Father said since I was small
I had fire in me that would never die
Therefore, I shall run forever wild
I tend to do all the things you hate
For I am dangerous and can’t be tamed
I am a nomad
I can not be told where to go
I can not belong to someone
I shall always know what I felt was real
Something always takes me back to thoughts of you
A sad song, novels and drunken actions I can’t undo
Still I remember the memories
I reminisce and ponder
It’s been months since our last encounter
Isn’t it peculiar how men rush to war unafraid
However, the slightest feeling of possible love for a woman
Leads them to their knees
The greatest fear of all
–Dangerous
–Unexpected
–Consuming
Is love for a woman who may one day leave
Don’t try to reach out to me once you’ve figured out you were wrong about us. Distance may make your heart grow fonder. Time may heal the hurt. However, I am not blind to the chaos you caused me and the destruction you left behind.
You have to be a bit mad to go far in life. Who else comes up with crazy ideas of changing the world? It’s obviously not the norm. Take pride in what has made you different. I refuse to allow anyone to use my disorder against me. Just take a look at all the heroes and leaders in history. Far more were mad than most people would like to ever believe.