Naive

I fought for you and you were to never be mine

How cruel it was to know this all along and not tell me

You knew the ending as soon as it began

I was a naive woman to think we could really be anything more than friends

Fire and Gasoline

How beautiful and frightening it is at the same time to fall in love

It’s like fire and gasoline

An explosion so intense

Ignited deep down into your very soul you think didn’t quite exist

Yet it could be the light to save you or a fire simply to burn you

 

 

Late Night Thoughts

It is hard to just shut off feelings when all you have ever been told is to follow your heart

You left

Therefore, my heart went with you

 

Note to Future Self

When I lost myself

When I felt like complete ruin

When I felt I could not go on any longer

When it came to wanting to take my own life

I closed my eyes

I felt a flame within

It took all I had to keep going

But I did

Here I am; Years later

I still stand

Transformed completely

Scars remain

They are felt deep within my soul

The struggle I had to make

To save myself

Now I make sure to never forget

How far I have come

Depression does not win

I do

Old Soul Affliction

How dreadful and calming it is at the same time to know I have an old soul

I do not relate to those around me for I have the wisdom of generations long gone

I love with all I have and have endured great heartache to save those around me

Quite a tragedy to feel so alone but my purpose is far greater than the happiness I have

yet to know

 

Beautiful Stop

How beautiful a stop it was

Even for just a little while

I got to meet you — a loving heart and oh so kind

I’m going to truly miss you and all the things you do

My heart breaks as I write this — but I remember

How beautiful a stop it was

Even just for a little while

Strangers

I give everything I have to each new lover

In return, I am left nothing but scars

Familiar faces become strangers in the same places

As time passes, my heart becomes colder

Until there is not much left of me

I am just distant, numb and older

 

Intersection

I lay awake at night not sure of myself

Am I making the right decision?

Am I choosing the right path?

How will I know if this life I’ve chosen is for me?

Am I happy?

Is this my purpose?

I feel content but content just isn’t for me

I wasn’t made to live a mediocre life

I wasn’t made to sit still

I wasn’t made to connect with average individuals

I was made for so much more

Unlocking that potential in me, is the major key

To open a life full of opportunities

 

 

Seize the Day

I get to my destination

I see there’s other paths

They lead to new experiences, people and places

Is it really worth it to have my future all planned out?

At last I’ve found

You can only truly seize the day

 

 

Savages of Society

We pretend not to care

We pretend not to feel

We pretend that we are savages

We weren’t born to be this way

Society taught us not to love