Mama Ida

I once lived with my birth mother

She was very beautiful and kind

No matter how hard she tried,

She couldn’t take care of me

Her mental illness became too much

Where she had to sadly give me up

I don’t remember when or how I ended up in a foster home

All I know is little me wondered what I did so wrong

Now these unwanted feelings return as I become an adult

And no matter how hard I try,

Those feelings of abandonment do not die

I thought all my life if I was perfect,

No one would leave me

My psychologist says that’s not true thinking

No wonder my self-esteem and confidence through years has been sinking

All I can do is take it day by day

Mama Ida, I love you and forgive you

I know you were just trying to give me a better life




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